Thursday, August 18, 2011

On Leaving My BFFs

This week is a tough one for me. As I write this, I'm in the process of saying goodbye to some of my favorite people I've ever met in my entire life. I kind of can't even begin to wrap my head around the fact that I won't be seeing them every day. I won't be able to walk from my desk around to my best friend's desks every morning. I won't be able to hit their extensions and annoy them in the middle of the work day. I can't IM them "Starby's?" and take a midday field trip for a caffeine fix. I can't call them up for an afternoon of day drinking in the East Village. It really breaks my heart. There's no upside to that, and that's definitely the hardest part of my decision to leave New York. How much I love my friends and family back home doesn't in any way make up for how much I'm going to miss my friends here. Missing is missing. And I have a lot of people here that I'm going to miss terribly.

So there isn't going to be a "but it's okay because..." moment from me here. I could seriously cry for days. But instead of doing that, I'm going to pack, and focus on getting through this move. I'm sure I'll cry a lot on the road trip for Ohio- 9 hours in a car with my Dad and my cousin. Plenty of time to reminisce about my time in NY. But I'm trying to remember that this is a happy change and something I'm very excited about. This is self inflicted pain at its best. Once I'm all settled back home, I know it's going to feel like the right decision. For right now though, it really is bittersweet.

I'm a lucky girl to have these many amazing people in my life... Real BFFs are hard to find. I've been fortunate enough to find a baker's dozen or so while in New York. (Can I start only measuring things in baking terms, please?)

Ok, I'm going to go cry and listen to Sinead O'Connor. These are some of my favorite memories from the past six years starting from the beginning...




























 I met this girl when I was 18 and I've been in love ever since.


























Oh yeah, I was blonde for a little bit. I loved it at first, then realized I looked like an alien.

carmen

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