Thursday, June 14, 2012

What I Wore: From Black to Pink In One Year Flat

OMG, IT'S LIKE I'M A FASHION BLOGGER OR SOMETHING! What is going on in the world?!??!?! What, do I think I'm fancy or something? I guess. Except not really because I'm still me. So I'm obviously still decidedly not fancy. That's okay though, right? I think that's pretty much the basis of my appeal. Lack of fanciness. Like, sure, I get dressed and try to look cute and stuff and be an adult. Whatever. But I also like throwing back Bud Lights and sometimes I sleep through my alarm and don't have time to shower in the morning. That's just who I am. 

Which reminds me of something I've been meaning to talk about here on ze blog- I've been feeling lately like I haven't been sharing a lot of myself lately. That seems weird, right? I mean, it's MY blog. Shouldn't it feel like me? Well, fortunately for you, I'm not about to start posting about Diet Coke, My Little Pony and beer every day. But I am going to make a concerted effort to share more about myself, my life, my future, my past and all things ME related on Cheeky Cheeky. DO I SOUND SELF CENTERED?!!? Good.Now you know what it's like to be friends with me.



I kind of have an issue in my real life with sharing. Not with like toys or anything {I was always REALLY good at that as a kid, mainly because I preferred hanging out with my Mom to actually playing with other kids} but like sharing stuff about myself with others. So I'm going to try this whole "sharing" thing out right now. Yes- NOW! I mean, I'm not getting all "Well, my first time was..." on you or anything. Just a little story about my style evolution.

Growing up, I never felt very girly. I mean, as a toddler and stuff, I was OBSESSED with glitter and sequins. {I've obviously secretly been a gay man for a VERY long time.} But when I was in elementary school, mainly fourth and fifth grade, I had a really bad habit of stealing my older brother's t-shirts and sweatshirts. It was during the time that Dawson's Creek premiered, and I was obsessed with all things Joey Potter. She was a total tomboy, so I embraced my inner dude-like dressing tendencies. This, of course, only lasted until junior high, at which time I started dressing like a girl again because the boys weren't exactly coming a-callin' when I was tomboy-ing it up. High school was the first time I discovered that I actually really loved putting outfits together, and was kind of good at it. I mean, looking back, my outfits were embarrassing as hell. But I took risks and had fun with it. I remember buying this tall pair of moccasins my sophomore year and rocking them, even though they were definitely not cool yet. Even my friends thought I was weird, but I really didn't care. I even rocked some black hair with red streaks for a while. SUPER COOL.



College was a rough time for my sense of style. I wasn't super happy with my body, so I wasn't putting that much effort into getting dressed. I basically looked a mess 95% of the time. I mean, I've never been one for walking out of the house looking like a hot mess, but I will readily admit that I was NOT the best dresser in college. Far too many ill fitting outfits. I was still finding my footing, fashion-wise. After college, when I was working in the city, I really started to define myself by the way I dressed. And it wasn't all that cute- believe me. I NEVER wore jeans- leggings every day. Legit, every single day. Tunics, dresses, long shirts, etc. became wardrobe staples. Oh, and did I mention that I wore mostly all black? Yep. It was certainly a look, but not entirely "me." After about a year of this, I ditched the leggings and started wearing jeans and dresses a little more. But I was still married to wearing almost all black at all times. Hey- it was New York. 

At my 23rd birthday, I wore something I couldn't imagine wearing now in a million years. Get ready for this- mind you, this is just over a year ago- black platform booties, ripped black tights, long cut up sleeveless black Grateful Dead t-shirt with a tight black skirt underneath, massive necklace, faux leather jacket, TONS of black eyeliner & greasy, messy hair. I mean, I was convinced that I was rock & roll personified. Like, for real. As much as I thought I was REALLY cute, I now look back and have to giggle at myself. I still sometimes dress in all black and wear lots of black eyeliner- and I will love my faux leather jacket until the day I die, but I feel like I have such a better sense of who I am and how I want to dress now. I would even still wear that cut up Grateful Dead t-shirt because 1. they're amazing and 2. it's freaking cute! I would just style it differently- maybe with jean shorts, or tucked into a skirt. 

A year ago at this time, I would have NEVER worn this pink & green outfit. Like... never ever ever ever. I honestly think I wanted to dress like this, I just didn't have the balls. Black was my security blanket, as were ripped tights and layers of eyeliner. I'm sure that in another year, I'll look back and say "what was I thinking?!" about this outfit. And I'm okay with that. Style is an evolution. Defining our personal style is part of defining ourselves. Well, it is for me at least. One thing I've come to realize recently- I LOVE heels. So so so much. But when it comes to living my life, I'd almost always rather be sporting flats. I'm just lazy like that. I mean, don't get me wrong- you can find me teetering along in a pair of way-too high heels at least once a week. It's just that heels are too difficult for me most of the time. I'm not a Weeble. I wobble & I DO fall down.


Okay. Done with the diatribe. Look, Mom- I shared with all of the other kids!!! Can I get a prize?!
Seriously though, now you know- it hasn't always been pink, floral and girlie. What about you guys- any major style evolutions to share with the rest of the class? I'd love to hear! It would be nice to know that I'm not the only one still changing my personal style every 5 minutes. 

{outfit: tank- target; skirt- thrifted; belt- forever 21; shoes- payless (holla!)}


20 comments:

  1. I'm kinda the same way... For years I wore only dark colors/black/grey. In the past year though, my wardrobe is now full of hot pink, orange, blue, yellow... It's such a huge difference from how I used to dress! I'm sure it will change next year too... We'll see! Great post!

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    1. Yay for evolving style!!
      Thanks, Allison!

      xoxo

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  2. There were about 18 things in here that made me love you more. As if that was possible. Also, in high school, I definitely had this like...I'm embarrassed to even say it, but it was like a faux hawk meets a-line meets mid-2000s life crisis. It was also red. And then blonde. I'm with you. Style is a personal revolution, and we should never be ashamed. More outfit posts! MORE!

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    1. GOAL ACCOMPLISHED! Thanks girl!
      And dude, you need to pull out pictures of the faux hawk from the vault. I have no doubt you found some way to make it look AMAZING. I NEED to see this!!

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  3. Thanks for sharing, Carmen! Personally, I always wear really simple clothes. Jeans and a plain colored t-shirt. I like wearing it, but sometimes i wish I had more variety in my clothes. The problem is, I don't think I look good in other stuff. I think that is changing though. I mean, whenever I go shopping now, I pick up everything I think would look cute on "someone else" and try it on. If it doesn't work for me, oh well. If it does, more variety for my closet.

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    1. I know what you mean about things looking cute on someone else! I say that a lot when shopping. But every so often, I'll get it for myself and try to figure out a way to rock it. You should try it!!

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  4. I really love the green and pink combo! You totally rock it, girl! I can definitely relate to your style evolution...I feel like my style has changed a lot over the last several years as well and like you, a few years ago I didn't have the balls to wear half the shit that I wear now. I guess I just wasn't as confident wearing this stuff, but I'm so glad that has changed. Now, I really enjoy pick out outfits and I have a lot of fun wearing the clothes that I wear.

    xx Adrian

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    1. GURL you are like my vintage idol. I can't believe you ever made a style-misstep! But I guess it's true- we all evolve. The look you're rocking now is amazeballs!

      xoxo

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  5. Loved this post. I went through this thing in high school where I refused to wear jeans. I think it was my own form of rebellion?

    -Brittany
    www.itsybittythings.blogspot.com

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    1. Hah it's like a mini-rebellion! I SO know what you mean. "I'm going to be different and NOT wear jeans like the rest of you!"

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  6. I'm really liking that color combo. Cute!
    Personal style evolution is hilarious and almost always cringe-worthy. In middle school I had a strictly black sweatshirt phase. I thought I was going to be some badass moody teen with my crazy neon shoelaces. The early years of high school were when I discovered thrift shopping and didn't know what the hell I was doing (I dressed like a fifty-something woman with braces and greasy bangs). Then I switched to really feminine and sweet. These days I like to think I'm somewhere in the middle.

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    1. Thanks, lady!!
      I SO remember the girls who wore black with neon shoelaces. I always wanted to be cool enough to be one of them! hahaha
      I definitely agree that the older we get, the more we find a balance in our style. Aging is good for something!!

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  7. I really like that you shared! I often wonder how much to share on my blog too. Also, I enjoy knocking back Bud Lights and went through an awful style phase in university too... i look at pictures and shudder. I still don't know what my personal style is. I feel like it changes all the time and I may never really figure it out.

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    1. I'm 100% with you!! Ever evolving.

      xoxo

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  8. Can you share the pics of you, especially the grateful dead outfit?! haha
    I agree though, it's hard for me to share "me" on my blog as well. My style has changed so much. I remember looking back on my "skater girl" stage and laughing. I blame Avril for that one.
    I remember my sister going through a gothic "Daria" stage that was amusing too.
    Stages are fun and clothing changes so fast, it's fun to see it documented over the years.
    I love this outfit! It compliments your figure so well!
    (See, I didn't know how to phrase that so I almost changed "your" to "yo" to seem more cool and carefree. Loser right here.)

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    1. hahaha I miiiight share some older pictures. They're just SO embarrassing! OMG and I SO remember the skater girl look. Thanks for nothing, Avril!!

      Thanks girl!!!

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  9. This post was hilarious! I appreciate your honesty *so much*. I feel like such an asshole sometimes doing outfit posts! Love that you just put it all out there! And you look amazing in this outfit! Love the skirt and tank combo! I want that skirt! :)

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  10. I cannot properly express how much I enjoyed reading this.
    -AW

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  11. you are ridiculously precious. love your blog -- found you via pineapple lily!

    xoxo

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